Ceci n'est pas un arbre

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That "hard to be around married people" feeling won't get better, sad to say, until you've reached some kind of resolution in your life. We battled infertility for 5 years before we finally got pregnant with our son. During that time I could not look at a child. Happy families were anathema to me and my seemingly barren womb. Each invitation to a baby shower felt like a cruel joke. And when my loosey-caboosey cousin got knocked up by 2 different men and then got "tied-off" (her words) so she wouldn't have to have any more kids, well. I cried all the way from Bartlesville to Tulsa. After a high-risk pregnancy and an emergency c-section and I could finally see my beautiful boy I found that I could see the joy in other children as well. I felt like me again, not some bitter, closed-off shell of a woman. When you've regained your foothold on yourself again, you may find it easier to remember that happiness happens and you will get your share.

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Growing up just isn't what I thought it would be...
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