in search of zzzzzzzzz
dear lord, i have had double teas and coffees all day and have resorted to eating crap loaded with sugar to try to stay awake. (my stomach is not pleased with me.) i have GOT to do something about my sleep schedule. it occurred to me this morning that it has been over a month since i started this job and my clock is still way out of whack. i thought it was just because i was having to wake up earlier, but now i recognize this for what it is...insomnia. again. ugh.
i'm going to sleep between 3 and 4 and waking between 6 and 7:30. even on the weekends, that only increases by an hour or two and only on friday night. i think that, come hell or high water, tonight i am going to trying to knock myself out early in the hopes of getting on track. i have 4 little ambien pills left, of the 5 that were prescribed to me, and so i have 4 nights to try to reset my clock.
of course, i could just wait for it to pass. it always does. or at least, it always has, but it could be another month or even more and i just don't think i have the stamina for that right now. i need to be rested. i need to be sharp so i can keep track of the many projects at work and in my consulting business that need to get done. i'm just not with it, not without a hell of a lot of effort anyway.
i have something to confess. twice now, yesterday and today, i fell asleep on the way to work while waiting at a red light. i know, i know. bad show. luckily i jerked awake when my foot started to relax off the pedal, but wow, that could have gone badly, eh? interestingly, it was the same light on both days. it's the second to the last light before my office too. wouldn't it brilliant of me to slowly coast into some exec's rear end just a block away from the building? sheesh.
well, i'm off to finish some consulting work and then to drug myself to sleep. i'm going to add some Sleepytime tea into the mix (they have a new version out with valerian root...mmm i love that stuff) just in case i need a little more help than ambien can give. but hey, does anyone know if there are any interactions between valerian root and ambien? i guess i shall have to make a visit to webmd before bed.
